Fold, repeat, fold
folding—or doubling—of my thought into yours.
“The inside is nothing more than the fold of the outside”
: announces the fold.
The above lines and a cacophony of text, word, image, and thought spanning nearly 20 years meet me as I walk into the dimmed art gallery in a quiet bylane in Mumbai’s historic Fort district. The halls are shrouded in darkness with jewel-like LCD screens emitting video art of unabashedly personal, intimate, narcissist, and at times erotic conversations of the artist with herself.
I find myself thinking out aloud: this is what it must be like to step into one’s innermost recesses—where demons and angels reside. Where battles are fought between our limitations and desires, and the uncrowned unvetted winners bask in themselves.
A Delhi-based artist and post-Graduate from the Royal College of Art, London, Sonia Khurana is no stranger on the international circuit. Her string of accolades and exhibitions over the past two decades are testimony to her radical, resistant art and seasoned use of lens-based media. She uses the latter in combination with performance, text, drawing, sound, music, and installation to create a voice uniquely her own. Fold/Unfold is her first solo exhibition in Mumbai.
Let it be clarified from the outset that Khurana’s work is not something you can waft in and out of to put a tick mark against a check box. The oft stipulated gallery visit allocation of half an hour or so does not even scratch the surface in her case.
There is no simple narrative here. Instead it is dense and layered, demanding from its audience a commitment to untangle her multiple “stutterings or stammerings” as she calls them. In her art, Khurana is the artist, subject, as well as her own muse.
So what does the viewer get in return for their effort? The showing offers a revelling in the depths of the human inner world, and at times a fissure sliced into our own darkness. Whether we choose to let some light in or not, into our own darkness, is irrelevant. What matters is the stepping into this space.
Folding – I
Khurana’s invitation to enter her inner recesses commences on a gentle unassuming note with “Surreal Pond I—Epiphany | 2013” and “House Anatomy | 2014” where a pond full of green mist and ants, respectively, regenerate themselves much like living throbbing organisms. There is a hint of the title in the mirroring, made more explicit through a deep red handmade accordion book which reads: The problem is not how to finish a fold, but how to keep folding it.
Look closely and the artist peers through in an eye heavy with insomnia and in another video, anguished, as her pencil-drawn hand claws out the words “start from scratch.”
I look for a bench or something to seat myself in an attempt to absorb the sights and sounds flashing around the room in a loop, but there is nothing. Instead, I find myself sucked into the darkness beyond where behind heavy curtains and in deep niches she recounts her interiority.
“The problem is not how to finish a fold but how to keep folding it”: Artist’s handmade accordion book with digital drawing and text [part unfolded] 
[Quotation: Translated excerpt from Gilles Deleuze text on the fold]
Top: Detail, House Anatomy ; Bottom Left: House Anatomy [vertical spin]: Video, 6 minutes, black and white, silent, loop, HD 
Top Right: Ants Progression 2 : Single channel, 5 minutes 30 seconds, silent, loop, HD ; Bottom: Start from Scratch : Single channel moving image, 4 minutes, black and white, silent, loop, SD ; Both are part of Dream Anthology: Dynamic wall installation, variable of still and moving image work 
Body Event – II
The centrepiece of the exhibition is also her most intense and vivid work. Khurana’s fascination with herself as both subject and muse comes alive here in all its profoundness.
In “Lone Women Don’t Lie | 1999/2000” one sees images of her in split monitors engrossed in mutual adoration and much nuzzling and pecking. The erotic exchange ends in a fleshy kiss.
Meanwhile in “Bird | 1999” naked and flapping her arms in a desperate attempt to fly but weighed down by the human form, she explores the enclosing nature of self image and the inarticulateness of the human body. “Bird” is especially key as it places her in the feminist discourse and amongst the key South Asian artists working with digital media.
Behind these, in an inner room, Khurana takes the viewer deeper into her mind. Titled “and the One does not stir without the Other | 2014” the room installation comprises two poignantly beautiful works—Sleep Interludes and Sleep Wrestlers.
The two 16-minute video loops scrutinise sleep as both a phenomenon and philosophical object, using twinned images of her mother [whom she also refers to as M-other] and herself. One is in deep sleep, dormant, and the other in perpetual vigil. The text voice-over recounts in the room’s pitch blackness:
Somnolence, Like each waking moment closing down on her with an iron embrace …
Insomnia, Like someone slowly sitting inside the brain, looking for lost words.
If I can’t dance, am I a part of your revolution – III
The grand finale of Khurana’s provocative exhibition is aptly titled “If I can’t dance, am I a part of your revolution.” It builds on her own understanding of her work as “a stuttering, or stammering, that is involved in evolving a radical resistant self.”
One of her most famous works “Logic of Birds | 2006” takes centrestage here wherein she dons the mantle of an abandoned homeless derelict lying on the ground at different locations pecked on by pigeons. The six-and-a-half minute single channel video projected on the wall is part of her larger project “lying-down-on-the-ground.”
Across the room Emma Goldman’s, a 20th Century feminist and anarchist, famous misquotation glitters in neon lights in mock agreement:
“If I don’t dance, is it still my revolution.”
Conceived in 2006, the project, comprising a series of videos and photographs taken over the years is a proposal to explore an aesthetics based on failure, a profound loss of self and a “device” for entering spaces and cities she has never belonged to. She closes her commentary in it with a gentle invitation to the viewer to join her [on the ground], even if but for a moment, and hence share a space with her, if only momentarily.
The invitation sums up the essence of her current showing perfectly. 🙂
if I don’t dance,
is it still my revolution?
[Ants Progression 2, Start from Scratch, Surreal Pond I—Epiphany, Lone Women Don’t Lie (left image): Images by Rama Arya; All other images courtesy Chemould Prescott Road]
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